monday's dinner: green bean soup
tuesday's dinner: water cress soup and tow suan
today's dinner: soya bean milk, chocolate chips cookie and two slices of garlic bread

yeah i dun exactly have a healthy lifestyle going on here. but dinner is no longer kept for me when i reach home, partly because the maid is cooking lesser nowadays as the whole family seems to be on some kind of perpetual diet. to think my mum used to be so anal abt me not coming home for dinner and eating unhealthily. not that i m complaining now. but ya, the irony of it all. just when a couple of hours ago, i was musing and feeling totally sick at the extent of her control in my life which seems to even stretch into areas so faraway and trivial. like her presence or word is not even necessary to establish her influence. i love my mum but sometimes you feel as though you are being made a fool when she can demand where you are on the phone, blasting the hell out of you and when you reach home, appear all nice and pleasant and ask you whether you would like to eat the new chocolates that she just bought. it's good in a way but ya it is extremely misleading to ppl who dun noe and terribly mentally strenuous.

along with a sucky episode in school with timberland, ng gp and some anonymous teacher who named my supposed evil twin "gracey choo", yes i m not feeling too good, on the verge of burning down the whole damn school only. just when i was cheering up and feeling all happily in bliss with him, the great maternal influence came in and ruined everything. well not everything, i was still happie :) but the feeling of disgust just gnaws away at a tiny tiny corner of my mind.

somedays i m just like that.

-post school opening syndrom-