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anyways i just realised that my prelim prep work for my art project is due on monday 1230 pm.. great and there i was happily thinking tt prelims are finally finally over. well apparently not.. i now have a little less than 48hrs to complete my damn drawings. been sleeping erratically. explains my dying complexion.. argh i'm gonna die poor and ugly. the greatest tragic figure of all times.

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ooh i wanna watch quidam..!! but now whenever i go out and not study, which is always the case, i would be filled with this overwhelming guilt. i so cannot imagine myself enjoying the show in any possible way. i swear Alevels has put me into this time warp where everything stops for it. as though i were some road junction where my life has stalled, waitin for the damn red crossing light to turn green.

the last econs paper which is the mcq, drq and case study paper was the first that i slept through half of the exam time. i was so so tired tat reading the question was already giving me a headache. really. seriously tempted at that point of time to hand in a blank exam script. there reallie is no pt. but i managed to force myself to write something for every qn albeit knowing that they are prob a little worse than crap. hurr..

i am obligated to study. but my obligations does not come from anyone even myself. perhaps partly because there is nothing else i can do other than this. wat a pathetic miserable existence that the only thing, the only purpose or focus of my entire life now has been uncompromisingly decided for me. at this pt in time i wld gladly choose to fail alevels and go to sleep until the end of time.