"studying is the loneliest thing one can ever do"

once upon a time i could pause in thought at any given time of the day and know just abt what the other person was doing right then. being able to imagine him in motion going abt his activities gives me an unexplainable sense of security. as though i was right there with him. now i cannot say anything for sure. a vaccuum in my head where all these thoughts used to be, gone in that ever expanding void of time and space that's suddenly shoved between two ppl. we can change the way we like our coffee, the places we go, sleeping habits, start working, stop going online, cut our hair.. furthing proving that the reason for separation was these change in both parties. but no, the separation was the reason for change.

today i stayed home and moulded clay for my art project. everything has to be in the kiln by monday, that by the way is less than 24 hrs from now. i made ginseng and lingzhi and tiger whip :D my room is officially a make shift chinese medicinal hall that stinks of clay

tiger whip f.y.i is not a whip used to whip tigers, contrary to some people's beliefs haha and.. they look unbelievably "unwhip-like". in fact they look more like a giant thorn or a singular claw that came out of t-rex.. i just never would have imagined them to look like tt


there..

it's a lie when someone says that they are doing something for no reason at all. the reason is probably ugly such that they dun wan to admit it even to themselves or they just dun know it. yet. i have fallen to this realm. again.. bloody hell.