'justherecarg loves you' actually meant something.
created for me to express my feelings, it seemed like a necessary outlet during that period of ambiguity. just in case i had no chance to ever say it in real life.

i held onto it as though it were my life moto. veiled it with the secrecy of an internet nickname, yet desperately hoping that its true meaning wld be caught on someday.

the message got across eventually, not this way of coz, nevertheless in all its silliness it reallie seemed to be all tat i lived for.

now i no longer use it. i wish i could but it hurts too much to do so.