i am weak from school...
even before it starts
alright i shld just stop complaining. there will be more to come in the next six months. on shits tt alevel brings. this is the worst time of my life thus far. and to think that prelims is actually easier than alevels. have also decided that my problem is actually not time moving too damn torturously slow but it's moving too damn fast for me to accomplish all my work or take a breath or figure out wat actually is going on! argh which reminds me i need to compile all my missing notes, results of my horrendous attendance track records..

do you remember the first day we met even now?
you looked abashed, hanging your head
and turning your eyes away

i wonder when such a manner became so dear to me
it makes me feel a little nostalgic
don't you feel so?

many seasons have passed by
with quick steps since then

when the white snow colors the city
let me stay by your side
though I may bother you
again and again

we talked overnight about our future and the moments
i felt they were so dazzling
and precious

tears welled up in my eyes
when I thought it would be nice
that I could forgive my past some day

when the white snow melts
and the city becomes vivid and colorful
i like to keep you closest
to my heart

the days we couldn't understand each other and parted
the days of tears, the days of smiling faces
whatever may happen and whatever mood you may be in
i'll always accept you

carols -ayumi hamasaki

as i stone on my bed.. i feel as though i am waiting for death. chinese is called deng2 si3
x__x