clothes have been the least of my shopping interests lately. instead, i have been amusing myself with an array of facial products. cheap masks from watsons counter to cool collagen looking eye patch from japanese cosmetic stores and of course my ettusais whitening essence, which bdw works pretty well..

i have nt used most of them, however, cause i decided that it'll be useless now that im having my exams with little time to slp. shall let the fun begin after! it's pretty amazing some of the stuff tt these skin care companies can come up wtih. from all natural ingredients extracted from TCM to food extracts like chocolate... creams and foams and essenc, leave ons and wash offs, exfoliating and what not.. and ooh the sales pitch they use to lure you into realizing ur dream of perfect skin.. the cosmetic industry reallie noes how to tap into the greatest of all seven sins- vanity.

oh and i recently bought the tea tree oil pimple patch thing for ryan.. apparently it works reallie well.. stops developing pimples and heals bad acne, scars and blemishes, without drying ur skin up at all. plus it's reallie economical.. 48 small round patches for less than 4bucks. whooo..

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oh my mum returned from japan and bought all kinds of reallie cool snacks and clothes. haha. pocky there is so full of chocolatey goodness! oh my bro is like in love w the gers there HAHA

"they have such good figure, makeup and dress sense"

boys will be boys..

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needs to focus on happy things..
lest i feel the need to sleep my life away again. i suddenly realized for a fact that i am standing at the edge of the big 2.. the bad thing abt being a year end baby is that you only enjoy a couple mths of ur new age before everyone automatically adds an extra digit on when the year changes. which is not fair cause next year, ppl will tell me tt im 21 when i m only 20 years and 3 mths old!!!

and ive concluded tt the second decade of my life was a total waste of time, sadly. in terms of achievements and personal success of couse. socially, i have no complaints, with all the love i have from frens :D who can?

ive blogged abt this b4, but now im less angst which i tink is a good improvement from feeling frustrated and depressed. it's the first step to making a change in ur life. cause changing ur life is all abt little decisions and actions everyday as opposed to one big bang and viola fairy godmother has changed you to a high flyer model student shit.

no way.. and i am slowly letting letting the consequences of me past actions catch up with me. it's no good feeling but i guess its reflective and healing, in a painful purging sorta way..

maybe tts y im so bad at this love thing now. cause im, admittedly, being reallie selfish at ths pt of time. more focus on my life and my mind and my happiness.. go figure, not a reallie healthy balanced r/s there.

once again, painful purging painful purging...