i can't remember when was the last time i stepped in sch. strangely i dun recall missing any lessons. i shall just trust that it is only my goldfish memory at work.

have taken better control of my temper lately. ah, talking helps. still i wish i were a little more free. not free in a physical time sense but spiritually. but i guess you just can't have everything all the time. i still believe that you can have everything sometimes, but nt today. nt this time.

since my new found creative endeavor in photoshop, i am reminded of my first love- drawing. an excellent place to channel all my negative chi.

sometimes it's not good to try too hard in what ur interested in. well, not asking you to not try hard but when you try toooo hard, the anticipation of praise or mere acceptance gets too high. you dun wanna get rejected cause if your greatest interest fails you, wat else can you fall back on? comforming wld be your greatest price to pay. sometimes masterpieces are best stored inside, alongside with cotton candy, childhood fantasies and love and dreams.